A few nights ago I was standing outside the Twin Falls Temple. I was traveling to Portland to see my sister and brother. My parents and I spent the night in Twin Falls where I went for a run and ran into the temple. As I stood there staring at the house of the Lord in the setting sun I said a prayer. I prayed that I would feel peace with something I have been dealing with. In my mind with peace would also come relief.
I know it has only been a few days but there has been no peace. There has been distraction but not peace. Tonight while on a drive a thought came to me: Maybe I am not to focus on having peace with “you know.” Maybe I need to make peace with the struggle. Because it is a struggle and the struggle isn’t just going to go away or stop being a struggle. Maybe I need to make peace that there is struggle and there is pain and that is okay. I remember reading years ago that “it is okay that it isn’t okay and I will heal.”
And it is. It is okay that I am not okay. I will heal.
And one day relief will come. Or maybe slowly fade into my life. Because peace is a process.