This is the song right now people. This is the song. Please listen to it as you read.
Today was good. Today was hard. So hard. I got something. I figured something out. But now I have to go about doing it. And I honestly do not know what the “doing” looks like. I know in the end all will be beautiful but the process of “getting” to that space will be painful. And I am scared . Scared of the unknown and the vulnerability that takes place inside of me.
At the same time I am overwhelmed at the goodness and grace of God and friends. Heavenly Father is answering prayers. I read today that sincere prayer is always answered sometime, somewhere. And I am choosing to believe this. That all of my prayers that I have prayed are still in effect. That sometimes it takes time to move a mountain but mountains will move.
Heavenly Father, I want to be good. I want to be kind. I want to be believing. I desire to have a faithful heart . To love my brothers and sisters in the manner you would have me. I want to live in your will. I want to let go of what you would have me let go of. Please, please help me to let go and help me to hang on.