This is the song right now people. This is the song. Please listen to it as you read.
Today was good. Today was hard. So hard. I got something. I figured something out. But now I have to go about doing it. And I honestly do not know what the “doing” looks like. I know in the end all will be beautiful but the process of “getting” to that space will be painful. And I am scared . Scared of the unknown and the vulnerability that takes place inside of me.
At the same time I am overwhelmed at the goodness and grace of God and friends. Heavenly Father is answering prayers. I read today that sincere prayer is always answered sometime, somewhere. And I am choosing to believe this. That all of my prayers that I have prayed are still in effect. That sometimes it takes time to move a mountain but mountains will move.
Heavenly Father, I want to be good. I want to be kind. I want to be believing. I desire to have a faithful heart . To love my brothers and sisters in the manner you would have me. I want to live in your will. I want to let go of what you would have me let go of. Please, please help me to let go and help me to hang on.
Love you Nicole. Do you mind if I share this with two of my kids? It is beautiful and they could use the message right now. By the way whenevee I watch the newest temple movie, I watch the Savior and could swear it is your dad. 🙂
Of course you may share! ps that is really funny:)